Right now I am sitting on the roof in Haiti listening to acoustic guitar and Nathan singing...Just talked to my mom. Better than I imagined. I said "hello" and thought there was no connection because there was a second of silence but then I heard a scream of joy and we both started crying and my sister Katie said all this stuff that I didnt really understand but just liked her voice and I just cant explain how happy I am right now. Im finally clean and full after a full day at Repatriot, one of my favorite places. And Im with people that Ive come to love so much in such a short time..Adam and Catherine and Abby...And Ive got to be with the high schoolers all day and I'm just crazy about them. They are so gorgeous. And one of them said to me "krystal, you just have a big heart!" and said she almost cried when we were in the city the other day and this old haitian lady was begging and when she put her hand out for money I just took it and held it and walked with her. And I didnt think anyone even saw that so it was really a special moment. And one of the kids named Checowski I am sort of in love with, I know I say that about alot of haitians but its the closest I can get when trying to describe how I feel about them. I havent seen him in like a week and a half and I thought I might not see him again and then today I felt a tap and looked down and there he was and I gave him a big bear hug. And he has this thing where he really likes to whisper to me so even though I dont always understand I usually catch m'reme ou, or sometimes he says I love you. And then there is all the guys who work there everyday who call me kristeena, not sure why, but its great and I love shoveling with them, and they all know I speak spanish and try to say things to me in spanish. Oh and I had the best conversation with this wonderful person named Chris who wants to move to wife with his haiti now that his kids are all grown up and he told me all about his sons and his mission work in Afganistan and we got to talk about Haiti and education and the economy and best of all God and his kingdom and he said the coolest thing.."If there is this much beauty left on this earth after the Fall can you imagine what it will look like when He comes back and restores all of it? And that the kingdom of God is HERE. Its NOW. Its coming but its also here and we are in it and WE ARE IT. And there is the kingdom of darkness ruling for now but we get to cling to the truth that there is a better kingdom and that the King of this kingdom has already won the battle. Just talking about makes me love being alive. 
It was also a day of obedience because this morning I had to leave with the team and I didnt really want to go and it wasnt very productive-a lot of just sitting and hanging out and I didnt even get to do my devotion but it was so so awesome because I was okay with all of it. Because I knew that I cannot decide what honors God most and be bitter if I dont feel like Im getting to do that thing. I was thinking about how he said "follow me" and that he says that to me everyday and everyday I choose to follow him of go my own way. And that just because Im doing something "good" doesnt mean I am following him at all. And that the guys he called to follow didnt say anything-yes or no-they just got up. And i realized how often I say yes without getting up. But it is so so rewarding to let go of the "good" stuff and hold on to him. Because I have nothing to get mad about, like my schedule or my productivity being thwarted. Were about to go do devotional, another huge gift, so Ill have to post more later but Haiti is better than yesterday. It literally gets better everyday. Maybe Im the one changing.