best day

Today...will not go into words. Far too beautiful. Incredibly significant. Learning that I am here just to stand before God. Arms wide open. thats it. Stand before him. And know that he is enough. that I have nothing to prove. So where did the day start? With being humbled. Because I thought this team was just going to be a group I really didnt know that I would just fly to la with. They have changed my life. With their passion for God. They have come to haiti, not to help, but to proclaim and be a part of the advancement of Gods kingdom. With God, you get what you ask for when it is what he has for you. This day has been full of prayer, conversion, miracles, tears, revelation, depth. Because they have put no limit on what God can do. And it has been an unbelieving rich reminder for me that I am on mission as well and that I should continue to moved by haiti. That it should be changing my life. That I should be amazed by the kids and the things they do. As I watch them speak in awe and wonder about their experience here and how they are really FEELING haiti, I am reminded of my own spiritual dryness. Today we went back to the tent city. What a joy. Jeff, the kid I connected so much with before was there and both of our faces lit up when we saw eachother. And today he took me and one of the men from the bel air team to see his home, which is a tent. And we walked over to it and he brought inside and in the front there was a little charcoal pile and he lifted up the lid of the pot on it and offered us the rice he had been cooking. It was the sweetest most hospitable thing. Him offering us food. Were told how to respond when kids beg but never told what to do if they invite you into their home in a tent city and offer you their dinner. There is no adequate response for that. And then he showed us all around their sparse, hot little tent and brought out his family album, and showed us the pictures of his parents, his family, him. It was absolutely beautiful. I cant believe we were able to share that moment with him. And the significance didnt even hit me until group devotional. I am so so thankful they invited me to be a part of their group time. And I had the chance to share and God layed it so clearly on my heart to say that we are not here to serve Haiti or haitians, we are here to serve God. And that is crucial because we will leave and the tent city will still be there. And we gave kids water and held them today but tomorrow and next week they will be thirsty and will need to be held. But God was in the tent city before we got there and he was there with us today and he will be there after we leave. Not just the tent city but all of haiti. And he has given us the honor of being a part of the work he is doing. That our work as individuals means nothing but that his kingdom that he has woven us into means absolutely everything. And I could see it in their face the feeling I felt as each of them shared-that feeling of God speaking to us through eachother. And afterward we prayed, me with two of the men on the team, for at least an hour. It was such powerful time in prayer. Praying for jeff, praying for their wives and children, praying for what each of us are called to as we leave haiti. Talking about the miracles in our lives, Chad had a baby born weighing 1 pound 11 ounces. John talked so much about his wife and how he felt called to her. And one of them said to me that God is not my fire but my torch. That it is not just light, but light in darkness shining the only the way there is. Adn so many times I felt like I just wanted to say amen and God was like, stand before me and leave when I am ready for this to be done. Where do you think youre going? There is nowhere else. And at one point, as I wanted to be done John started praying about the three of us and that verse that says a strand of three cannot be broken. I also got to talk to this wonderful girl who tlold me her story and sho I got to share mine with. And we got to work at Repatriot today and shovel and move rocks with haitians and eachother adn they were so encouraging about the labor I was doing and how hard I was working. Its like family. So many were brought to tears today. So many were brought to their knees in prayer. They are having their lives changed by God in Haiti, and so am I. Thats what life is. Being changed by God. And its beyond beautiful.