enough

hard day. I dont know why. It started off good. I found my spot to spend time with God. on a staircase to the roof that no one goes up on but there is a doorway so there is a lot of breeze. Abby shared at devotion time with a quote from the sacrament of the present moment, maybe the best book after the bible, and he said that we are like stone and God is our mason and with every blow that hurts so much he is shaping us into something more beautiful than we can concieve. That all we have to do is stand before him and trust that he is for us. And take the blows knowing that they are making us into something we are not. And I realized that I love being with God. I really do. Which sounds simple but it somehow encourages me on this day where I am down that I seriously  love to be with him. There is no place Id rather be than his presence. Even though hes rarely a priority and I am so busy and I dont even care most of the time about his will.
I did invisible tasks today folding and organizing pictures and having conversations. Left me feeling useless. Exemplified by the fact that my last week has begun. I really struggle with leaving places. Im kind of already at the point where I am thinking about it so much that I just want to go and not deal with that recurring feeling. I suddenly had this sense that what I was writing was not what I was supposed to be writing about. That there is only one thing to say

I love you God. no matter what, I love you. You are enough.