Wonderful day. Got to spend time with the Lord over some Haitian coffee, which I am really going to have a tough time parting with, then worked in the school all morning giving english exams to 5th and 6th graders, assembled gifts for preschool graduation and then spent the afternoon at the construction site making concrete, shoveling sand, hanging out with kids there. The longer I am here the better it gets. I was very afraid I wouldnt form any relationships which was a rdiiculous fear. Now the bigger fear is leaving peoples lives. Adults of couse will be fine but the kids I am love is going to be tough. But they have wonderful families that love them, so they are probably not nearly as attached to me as I am to them. Its interesting how much of my mood hinges on how much I have to do. Lots to do, I'm happy, little to do I am depressed. It points to the fact that I still struggle with Gods love for me being constant, not ficle, not dependent on my work or my ministry or my life. I hope if I grow in Haiti, it will only be in the direction of attachment to Him. Thats all that matters. Being detached from the world is the best way to love it. Because you do not demand that it fulfills you and brings you life. You do not have such an obsession with being necessary and depended on and you can rest in your utter dependence on others and God. The compound is full of life between the kids, the long term people and the lots of short term people coming in and out
So I must find the tension between not spending too much time writing but taking the time to write. I f I dohnt I'm sure it will be my biggest regret. But once I start writing, it is sure hard to stop. You acnt help the feeling you are only scratching the surface of what is going on and not giving any of the people you wanted to talk about the light you wanted to shine upon them. Today my friend Cola said to me that I am almost Haitian because I'm getting tanner. It made me so happy haha. I'm extremely proud and honored to be able to identify with the Haitian people. I adore them and admire them. More tomorrow hopefully...

Fight the good fight.