In the beginning was the Word and the Word was with God. And the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things were made through Him and without Him not one thing was not anything made that was made. In him was life, and that life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness and the darkness has not overcome it.

John 1: 1-5

Me and a couple of my favorite girls just started a bible study and we're going to journey through John. And so we read through this first section and twenty beautiful, haunting, inexplicable questions arose. How can God put on flesh? Did God send Jesus or did Jesus choose to go? What really is sin? What about people who are atheist? The nature of the Trinity. The cross. The wrath, the love. All of it at once like this flood of holy curiosity and who he is. And it astounds me and delights me that I will never have a clear grasp. This little section of John will never lose its mystery. The nature of the One we love will always be elusive, beyond our small minds and anxious desires to understand in fullness.
And that every time I read it, it strikes a chord, yesterday it was the notion that I could dive into the bottomless ocean of the nature of God and the trinity and the sending of the sweet sweet Son and that today this idea of the light in the darkness it what I will treasure and hold in my heart. And I think of my own deep fear and dislike of darkness, my desire to avoid it at all costs, and the boundaries I've placed in not wanting to travel to deep with people into their brokenness, especially if its a brokenness different than mine. The light shines in the darkness. There was no darkness, nothing too disgusting and uncomfortable and horrific for Jesus to ingest. I read about a guy who as a kid fell knee deep into sewage (sewage as in what came directly from the bathroom) and was so glad it was only knee deep. He went on to say that not only did Jesus go head under and immerse Himself but he ingested the sewage. Sometimes we don't want to consider our own sin and darkness that gross, but when we look at ourselves and the glory and perfection and purity of God, we realize that the comparison does not to justice to what Jesus did. And it applies to our lives because, we as the body of Christ, must not have people that are too entrenched in sin for us to carry light to their darkness. Quite literally the serial killers, the traffickers, the rapists, the abusers, the insane...Jesus ingested it already. They are given His robe just as we are. I know this awkward and unpopular and uncomfortable but I have to bring it up because its crucial in understanding who Jesus is and who we are as His body and bride. Life in Him is the light of all men, light that will seek out the darkest part of the blackest night of the human soul, and that darkness will never ever overcome it.