Oh, how he loves.

My heart got broke a little bit today. Which happens from time to time. The sweetness of being broken and hurt is that you experience the love of Christ with a depth you were unaware of...

Just the fact that he would come and gather me in his arms, even as I cling angrily to the hurt and foster hatred to the ones I was hurt by. Nothing reveals the beauty of Christ that he would gather me and be present with me and be hurt with me even as I held on to hatred towards his beloveds. As I held onto judgement and let those poisonous thoughts in, he didn't leave me. He came and was broken and hurt with me. He was patient and perfect and he knows how to not condemn me for the evil in my heart. And he can do it without confirming the evil or ever being unfaithful to the ones who I am not loving.

Child-

Its okay, little one. I know how much it hurts. I feel it too. When you are hurt, I am as well. And we can sit and be hurt together. For as long as you want. All night if you want. I never get tired of being with you. I know that your hurt is real and it kills me to see you in pain. When you're ready, I'll whisper I love you. There is no rush. Can I tell you the story again? Our story? How I have adored you since before time began? How I had you in mind when I crafted the oceans? How I came to the depths to find you? How I would rather die than be without you?

I know that you are lonely, but I am close. Closer than you can sense. You don't need anyone but me. I am enough for you. If you let me, when you're ready, I will come in and heal you. I will turn the darkness into light and I will unclench the hurt you are holding onto, and those who you thought you couldn't love again you will find yourself loving. You will find yourself forgiving. I am for you baby.
When you are ready, I will gently remind you that I will strip you of everything but myself. Because I know it will bring us closer when the things between us are gone. Its going to be okay. I won't leave you with holes, I will fill them with myself. They were meant for me all along. I love you so much. I love everything about you. I'm proud of you little one. You are so much more than I know you ever imagined you could be. You are bringing glory to my Son. You matter immensely to me and to my kingdom. I've hemmed you in.

-Abba