Ezekiel and Romans

I've been reading the book of Ezekiel and what strikes me is what God says to Ezekiel which is

 I will send you to them and you shall say to them, Thus says the LORD God, And whether they hear or refuse to hear they will know that a prophet has been among them.

And I was thinking about this morning and these past couple of weeks and what its looked like to love people. And the fact that God doesn't ask Ezekiel what he wants his work to look like. What he wants to say. How he wants to present Gods word. He just says, don't be dismayed or afraid, you just speak my words regardless of whether they hear or refuse to hear.

I always have in mind what I want it to look like. There is something in me that thinks if I am meeting with girls or with my family or serving then I'm already doing what Gods want and I can decide what I say or be upset when it isn't deep enough or God filled enough or when I don't really want to say what I know is truth because its awkward or outdated or whatever and I base how "ministry" is going on response received. Which is the opposite of what he tells ezekiel to do. And he says ezekiel, you are not a servant to Israel you are a servant to me. You need to be with me and learn what I have to say not what you think they want to hear.

I think that somehow I feel I need to defend Haiti and the Haitians all the time, and God clearly says that I am not a servant to Haiti. I am only servant to him. And I am bond servant to him. If that means never saying another word about Haiti, I trust that he is still good. Because who am I to say whether God is or is not good?

Who are you, O man to answer back to God? Will what is molded say to its molder, Why have you made me like this? Has the potter no right over the clay to make out of the same lump one vessel for honorable use and another for dishonorable use?
Romans 9:20-21