to you and me, love God

My delight,

Hush little one. I am here. I promise that I am with you now and that I will never leave you. Now, love, I know how hard this time is for you. Remember, I know everything about you. I know all the darkness that envelops you; I know the secret wishes and anguishes of your heart, I know your dreams. I know all of it and I love you deeply and passionately not because you love me or because you glorify me or because of the way you look or act or anything. I love you because you are my utmost delight. I love you because I formed you and knit you together in the secret place and you have been written upon my heart since before the universe. So slow down. I have not called you to be successful, but to be faithful. Cling to me. Now, you and I both know that a person only has two hands and cannot cling to many things at once. And if you are holding onto more than one thing you are not holding anything very closely are you. So drop it and just grab me. I will sustain you. I will glorify myself with your life. I will dance order and grace into the chaos of your life; I will paint loveliness in the muck. I am light. In me there is no darkness at all. Do not keep trying to purge yourself of all that darkness that is suffocating you. The only way to get rid of darkness is to let light in. I am light. Oh how I love you. I am enough for you. And you will not find that until you are stripped of a whole lot. You will not know that your worth is not in what you do until you have nothing to do and you are forced to finally look at me and hold out empty hands. I want empty hands. You will not know that I will satisfy the cravings I built in your heart until there is no one else satisfying them. You will not know that I am enough if there are many other things cushioning your life that are just making barriers between us. Stay awhile. You wont spend much time with me if your to do list is a mile long will you? Are you starting to see what a gift this is? This nothingness you are fighting? There is so much more I want for you. I want you to learn the beauty of solitude but I cant with all that noise down there. Silence is mine, darling. Sit in it, soak in it. Come quietly to the tabernacle, enter the sanctuary. Prayer, love, you are just a baby in prayer. Its such a beautiful thing.  Or the Word, I watch you rush through it so often and I am so glad that you look and you want to know it but you have to savor it to really know what it tastes like. It will move mountains in your soul.  Relationships. You must be loved by me to love others. Otherwise you will both end out in deeper pain. Let me love them through you. Because people will hurt you just as you have hurt people so many times. And it stems from a need that no human will fill for any of you. But relationships are what I designed you for. You are relational in nature so you cannot continue to be so afraid of them. Yes, they will hurt. But the sting will not be the same if you know that I will not hurt you. I promise I will never hurt you. You have never known anything like me because there is nothing and no one on earth like me.
But I am here. With you. I’ve got you. But you have to let me. Hold you, that is. And though theoretically you like and understand the idea, you’re resisting me. Being embraced fully does not appeal much to you does it? But deep down its there. The need. The thirst. I love you. I will never stop telling you that because you must know that more than anything else. I love you.

God