Dear God,

I'm just sort of empty so here I am. You are the only one that can fill me up. I'm lonely though I'n surrounded by people, let down by the holiday frenzy and massive amounts of material things, tired and lazy all at once. I need you, God. Without you, I cant find any life. I'm sorry for running from you. Sometimes I just don't know how to stop. Love, I'd like to learn what it means to pray, to pray hard. I'd like to learn what it means to be silent. I'd like to stop busying myself with errands and conversations and everything but you. You are right for me. I miss being close to you. I miss you so much. I'm just off without you. I'm not me. All I am is yours and if I'm not actively being yours, then I'm not being me either. Come and be with me. or make me come and be with you. Thanks for being patient. Thanks for sending that little guy a long time ago so that I get to write this to you know. Thanks for not minding that I'm sad and messed up and run after everything else when I know and you have shown me time and time again that you are the wildest lover I'll ever have. Thanks for the wind that whispers about you and for painted skies and ending runs early to lay on the grass and think about you. Thanks for Katie and David, sorry I don't love them well. You love them so well. I love you, God. I really do know that you're the best even if I don't act like it. Days where I don't get to be with you stretch long and hopeless. Even though I'm sad today you're the same yesterday and today and forever. Your yoke is easy and your burden is light. I am so weary, so heavy laden, so here I am, coming to the living water. Laying all my shortcomings and sadness and frustrations at your feet. Give me the courage to stay here for a while. Not just gather it all right back up and run away. Don't let me leave just yet.

Krystal