julian and jeremy

O, Lord, I will never get enough of you. I have much to learn and reflect on from what you spoke to Julian of Norwich many, many years ago…

I can never have perfect rest and true happiness until I am so attached to Him that there can be no created thing between God and me.

Lord, I beg you for that kind of attachment to you. You have made us only for yourself. We have being through the love of God. The smallest thing lasts because you love it. She said that your only desire is that our souls cling to you with all of our strength, clinging to your goodness.

And I think Lord, of all that a week with you has brought…a new friendship with a man named Charlie in Moore Square, singing old songs with young students on a Tuesday night while the rain poured down, being fed and cared for by a marvelous family friend, sitting on the rocks of a river and reading about the wonder seeping through Mary’s magnificat, lots of laughter, lots of deep conversation, lots of bike rides, lots of learning. That is one week with you. You fill me up. Julian said no created being can ever know how much and how sweetly and tenderly God loves them. That it is our nature to long for you and your nature to long for us.

Who are we that you are mindful of us, let alone long for us? How do I become more yours lord? Let me dwell on your goodness this week. Let me understand that I am unworthy and you are all goodness and let every interaction and word and breath I take flow from that knowledge. Grow my attachment to you, my desire for you, even when it means taking away the created things between us. There are many. But you are faithful. And I wonder at the mystery that today is Sunday and I get to go sing your praise and gather with body of believers. Prepare my heart for it lord, for what you have to teach me and say to me this morning.

Jeremy Taylor said, “What is most important to God is that we submit ourselves and all that we have to Him. This requires that we be willing to endure whatever his will brings us, to be content in whatever state we are in, and to be ready for every change.”