Sit at His feet

Every once in a while, we reach these moments in the Word where its finally going beyond the surface and its meeting the needs, the urges of your soul and you want to devour it and get lost in it and soak in it. Do. Don't stop. There is nowhere more important you have to be. The messages that we have somewhere to be, something to do, some productivity to fall into are the battle cry of the enemy and of the ugliness in us as they start to see how serious the situation is becoming. Rest. Be patient. Soak in every ounce of holiness. Sit at His feet. Your email can wait. Your work out can wait. No one needs you at this moment. God whispers to your spirit:

I want you. I want to instill myself in you. All of myself. "I will plant you in this land of faithfulness, with all my heart and all my soul" (the Word)

What do we want though? The offer is there. The question is whether we will take it. An impersonal, ambiguous God is so comfortable. Even a busy God who is dealing with all the world issues and needs us to deal with our own lives. The ball is in God's court. But its not. Our God is king, hunter, husband (C.S. Lewis). Putting ALL of his heart and ALL of his soul on the table. There can be no more wistful thinking on our part. no more self pity or need to take care of ourselves. Because his offer is there, in the deepest most sacrificial sense our choice is whether to accept or reject this deep love. Do we really want to be loved like that? A love that pales everything we've ever encountered. Or will we continue to pretend and make ourselves believe the offer hasn't been made, so we can avoid that question and the answer we already know...

I am so much more satisfied in a busy life of doing, running from one thing to the next then this life of being and being God's. Not being successful or smart or accomplished but being. Its so uncomfortable. Its uncomfortable just leaving class and and thinking "what should I do now?" Nowhere to be, no one who needs me, this panicky urge to study or schedule a meeting or go to the gym..But God's love would be no less if I did nothing for the rest of my life. Because He decided to clothe every person in Christ's glory and let us appear as the one person who did everything.