lent-community with God.

I am valuable in Christs Kingdom. Every single day. When I succeed and when I fail. Today I failed. I forgot the things I needed to remember to schedule well. And thats okay. I am perfect in Christs eyes.
god, its hard for me to accept that you use failure to make me rely on you.
Its hard not to mourn the little mistakes I make.
I can be PROUD of my failures because they show that I AM NOTHING AND YOU ARE EVERYTHING. Who am I to say anything was a failure? Maybe you just have a different plan for the day or evening than I do. Maybe yours is infinitely better. The bible is full of people who failed. Huge mistakes. Heart breaking. And you use people who fail. And more importantly you love people who fail. because it isn't about what we do well and poorly it is about what you do and have done and will do.

You cannot and will never fail.
Your love will not fail me.

You aren't going anywhere.
Your love endures forever.
Lord, you have shown me that how strongly I react to failure shows where my heart can be found-
in what I do.
Thank you for revealing my worship disorder. That I am worshipping what I do rather than you.
I am worshipping myself and my desires...instead of you.
But this is the season of Lent.
And you have made it clear, through my dear friend Michael what Lent is about.

Michael, I don't even know how to do lent.
"What I usually do is look and think about my life and what is keeping me from having community with God. Thats what I take out of my life."
 Any hindrance to community with him. Or adding something that would build community with him. The point is to be more in communion with our lord. No matter what it takes.
Restore me to deeper community with you.
Eliminate the things in my life that pull us apart and come between us.

I know that right now, in the deep part of my heart, a voice whispers You're only good if...
followed by standards I'll never meet.
But you, lord, have told me what makes me good.
Christ alone. 
I must dwell in that this lenten season.

The Lord will establish us as a people holy to himself.