a prayer.

Father,

I know not how to follow you. Will you show me?
I know not how to love you. Will you show me?
I know not how to listen to you. Will you speak to me?
I would like to know you abba.
I would like to proclaim you.
I will sing to you.
I will smile at you.
I will draw near to you today.
Come through me.
Make your home in me.
Make me your own.
I am not peaceful or humble or obedient but will you make me that way?
You told me everything I ever did. Could this be the messiah?
It is. You are.
Savior.
Lord.
Do your commandments? Can you help me?
Come close.
I am here. I am closer than you know. 
God of Abraham, Issac and Jacob.
I AM WHO I AM.
Can I see you?
If you have seen the Son, you have seen me. My fullness dwells in Him. 
God, I really love Him.
I know dear, so do I. 
God, can I stay with you forever?
Forever and for always.
God, I don't know the life I am called to.
Do you know how to obey me today?
Love you, love people, make disciples?
Praise you, pray, read?
Be the aroma of Christ?
Yes love. Its all in the Word. Look to him. The founder and perfecter of the faith. Do what he commands you. Love us. Stop worrying about usefulness. The usefulness of your life, is my concern not yours. 
Every day though, I'm with you and I love you, then I lose you. I just live a normal, not radical, life.
Pursue me alone.
I'm scared.
What are you afraid of?
Being disobedient.
Pursue me alone.
I have been with you. You have lacked nothing. 
You're right.
Krystal?
Yes?
I love you.
Why?
I love you.
I love you too.
Are you in my midst?
I will never not be in your midst.