what I hear from the lord

This is not a dramatic revelation, its just me using the Word, that is so sweet and so good, to speak the gospel and His Truth to myself when I am struggling. Perhaps, wherever you are, the lord whispers these words to you as well. I pray that He draws you nearer to Himself and you are able to see and taste and know His delight in you, deeper and brighter and better than anything the world can give. 

You are here for me. I need you to know that you are here for me and me alone. Not for the church, not for the youth, not for the team not for the country. You are here for me. As the bridegroom rejoices over the bride, so shall I rejoice over you. Today. I know that I have taken your comfort. I know that I am not allowing you to live the way you want to live, frustrating your expectations and humbling you. Everything that I do to you, I do for you. Do you know your name? It is not Forsaken. I see you darling. I see your bitterness and frustration and hurt because you think that I have Forsaken you, or you think that because of your own fault you are forsaken. No little one. Your name is My Delight Is In Her. That is your name. Because I love you with an everlasting love. And you have turned to other things. Such as this trip being the way want it.

Lord, why did you bring me here?

Oh little one, do you know how many before have asked the same? Do you not remember Moses? How often the Israelites asked why I brought them into the wilderness? Remember little one, I let many of them die there. Why? Because I am lord. I am YAHWEH. I was enough for them. There is no “God and.” Its just me. Not me and a satisfying life. Me and an impressive mission. Me and a safe and healthy family. Just me darling. I am not your accomplice. If I were, I failed you. But I am your Lord. I have freed you, dear. Freed you from pleasures that make promises they cannot keep. Freed you from self-obsession and self-exultation. You of all know the bondage of the world. You have seen its tinseled promises. You have seen the darkness and brokenness of life apart from me. Come to me. Just come sit with me. I will rock you. It will be more than enough for you. Trust me. I am more than enough for you. Better is one day in my courts than thousands elsewhere. I will prune you so that you can bear more fruit. Don’t be surprised by the pruning. I promised it was coming. It is here. Know that even as I prune you, I love you. I pour my love upon you. I hold you when you are sad, even if you are sad about losing your idols and your lovers. I love you through that. Because I have lobed you while you were still a sinner. My son died while you were turned away from me.