Was able to spend time at a nursing home today. What a heart God has for the old, the widowed, the sick, the dying. How deeply affectionate of them he is. I said, Lord I don't know that my heart can be stretched to burdened for another group of people, but then I knew that it had already been done. 5 hours today at this nursing facility, most of it with one woman who is a Jehovah's Witness, talking about whether Jesus is God or not. Sitting with a woman who couldn't speak, just holding hands. Thats good. Its deep and its godly and its of the lord. The nursing home smelled like my favorite orphanage in Haiti in a few spots. And when you leave a place that is hard to be in, having that sense of transferring that burden over to the lord is such a good thing. God this is your burden now, I carried it with you but now it is all yours, sweet lord. Your yoke is easy, your burden light. I am weary and heavy laden. Take me to the water, because I am thirsty. Spending time with young life girls today. just plain hard. Probably getting harder as time goes on. Giving a talk on life with God on monday. What do I say to these beautiful children of God living in a world of such brokenness and desolation? How do I speak to them about life with God? How do they hear? And God, what do I do when you are not revealing yourself in a tangiable way to them? When will they see you? Why cant they see you lord, when I know your presence so well? And I have no doubt that you tore a veil in me, just like you did in the temple that I may see you. Do it for my girls lord.

Here is the letter to the urban kids. Its a letter I need to hear as well.
Sons and daughters of God,
I am here to speak to you about he who is greater than life. Life with God is different than life with out God it two key ways. It is immeasurably better and immeasurably harder. It is harder because you die to yourself. You no longer believe the message our society is doing its best to tell you: you have to take care of yourself, your needs, your desires. You can't trust God with your sexuality. You can't trust him with your lonliness. You can't trust him with your fear. I am here to say that you can. That your sin is no match for his grace. That your life will never earn you rightness with him. That he alone is the one who will set you free. You will not set yourself free.
God, I want them to know that your name is Faithful and True, those who have known so little faithfulness. I want them to know that you will wash us and we will be whiter than snow, you purge us with hyssop and we will be clean. You are a God who cleans. You are a God who loves. You are a God who is good who demands absolute goodness and perfection and love. I hope that one day you get sick of life as it is and you sense that there is something better for you. That something is life with God. I hope that once you step into life with God, you know that you are stepping into battle. And I mean that in a very serious way.
I love you, I want to tell the urban kids. Your leaders keep coming because we love God and through loving God we are able to genuinely, deeply, passionately love you.
I love seeing you play basketball because I know that you are improving even when it consumes a lot of your life. Jesus will consume all of your life. And it will be so good.
I hate that you don't trust your heavenly Father because the only dads you've ever known have been more broken and more distant and more unreliable than most things in your life. I hate that you think he doesn't love you because you don't see him answering in your prayers.
I know this doesn't make sense to you right now, and its hard to hear for anyone, but he answered every prayer in jesus. And when you pray for your family or friend or your boyfriend or yourself, you are praying for deeper things than you think. Praying to be loved. To be accepted. To be cared for and protected. And each of those deep things Jesus has already done for you. We know the end of the story already and he wins. He absolutely wins, and when he wins and we are his, we win too. He will be your dad your mom. He will be your lover. He will be all that you every have ached for, the only fulfillment you can ever hope for. The only thing worth living for.